OnCe UpOn A TiMe iN uPmN...HAHAHA....

This year 2010 is my 3rd year in my degree program...wow how fast time moves...I still can feel how when i put on my 1st steps on this land called Sg Besi and Universiti Pertahanan Nasional Malaysia(UPNM)..My dad was the most happiest and proudest person..Why? Coz he thought i can become an army officer...so let see what i will become later..hehe suspence rite? I passed my interview eventhough i know i never answer the questions because i dont want to be in UPNM..u wanna know why? Wait n see..So when i enter Sg Besi camp it was a very well organized with military police at the main entarance checking and answering civilians question...then second enterance was the UPNM and the RP welcomed us..Feel happy when thinking of me going to study in a well organized and famous in high discipline university..Wow can u imagine..talking about defense ..ARMY, NAVY AND AIR FORCE what is your 1st impression..if me..i have high respect on them.Feel proud to be in defense...Well im going to be 1 of them..We have physical test n interviews..can u imagine I stop running since form 4 and suddenly run 2.4 km with already given the time limit..and I over the limit...and some excersice i cnt do according to the instruction..hahaha damn weak..but nw i think back, sure i cn do if i wanted to do..bt u know ..that time was like so blur..hehe..and interviews..before they ask questions they told us that we are not going to be regular officers but only reserve officers..oh my god i was just reserve? not going to be capten..only second lieutenant..i lost my interest to become 1 of the person in UPNM because i know i cant be regular officer anymore..my heart was broken into pieces...i never answer properly in the interviews so that they can fail me and i can study business in UMS.. so now u know why i failed my interview myself..im not going to be regular officer..when i waited and pray 1st before checked in the net for which university i got.. I prayed no UPNM....It was another shock..i was almost crying...i got UPNM as civilian student a.k.a reserve cadet...my dad feel this one is much better then i go to UMS coz UMS is very far from peninsular Malaysia and  needs money for flight and can only come back few days in a year....so what else i except it..maybe i got this because im the only Indian gal in my batch..so as to fill the quota they passed me...i take it as my faith.UPNM is my destiny..so i take it with my open heart..feel happy at least i got chance to go university..lots of my friends didnt get any university..so 2 cars followed me..hehe...im a family gal..i love if my family do everything for me..so we started at 7am from my hometown but before i reached to the place...my family n I were lost...we couldnt find where is the Sg Besi camp almost few hours..and i was among the few last person who arrived in UPNM..my heart beat so fast and feel like dont want to study and stay with my family..hehe..i dont want to separate from my family..but on the other side after i feel so excited to be in UPNM..i was in a new life, new environment and new friends.Being the only indian in my batch is a weird thing...Im not new to this environment because i have been in TLDM school where there are majority malays,  cn say most of them were malay. Indians can be counted just 3 or 4 people..My friends are all malays but what is the difference being with malays in UPNM and  in TLDM..Convent school no need to explain..Convent means UNITY...well i think there is a lots of differeneces between TLDM n UPNM..for example in TLDM we are studying in klass since standard 3 till form 3 and we know each other more, we become like sisters n brothers.They never bias to me...even my friends came to my house to eat tossai during their fasting and open up their fast at my home..that is how close my malay friends are..but in UPNM the malays are from many states and most of them never had indian friends before and some have very bad thoughts on indian maybe because of some indian thats show of their bad attitude make the malays have bad thoughts on Indians.It takes almost 1 year and half to get along with them..and in 1st year i was not staying with all in 1 dorm coz no place so i was given the other place with me alone in 1 room. I suffered a lot coz its hard to do assignments and atlast get used to lonely. Maybe if i stay in dorm with all..we can get used to each other. My result was not good in 1st semester and it effect my other semester result..But i never give up ...my 2nd semester till now, my results not bad, it's increasing little by little. I thanked my god coz never let me down..the most unforgettable moment of my life (bad memories) was when all the civilians transfered to stay outside and all of us has been given rooms and i have 6 house mates(1st list)..and 2 of my house mates try to push me out of the house by asking me to go to the other house(2nd list) as if my name was in other house..and the other house didnt agree and said my house belong to the 1st list.They even auctioned my name to the other dorms to take me as their housemates..i was auctioned?...its still hurt...Why do the 1st list house mates did that to me..just because im an Indian..what kind of human being they are..i dont feel anything when all my house mates are malay..but y they acting like that to me who are the only indian..only god know the situation im had gone through..being pushed by fuckers to here n there...but i couldn't say anything but only crying..at the same time i lost my beg where i kept my rm150 given by my family members to me..one of those malay gals wrongly took it but they are so rude..asking me to come n take myself and never say sorry..why the malays are so fucking bullshit..then i realize who r they to talk to me..i am who i am..no one can make me look coward..im not coward..i started to think of myself..to those who did that to me..i'll make sure u gals find for me..i am very sure those who did this will never forget and will always feel sorry..i can forgive u..coz im just a human being..but u must take ur punishment from ur god..that was my miserable university life few years ago..now i feel happy with malay friends...some of them are so good..my malay best friends from TLDM i will never hate them..coz half of my life gone with them..i love them so much..now my new friends ,my life is going with them..we are in a same boat to row..love u gals..i have seen lots of people..y there are difference between them, its because their lifestyle and own thinking..some are open minded some are the kuno's hehe..next year we all are going to graduate, so i just wish all my friends will pass their degree and go out of UPNM with flying colours......until then we will still row the boat together............