WhEn DrEaMs CoMe tRuE............

Ever since i know Harry Potter, JK Rowling's very 1st Harry Potter has turn my interest to read story books..then i started to read Enid Blyton's books too..i keep following Harry Potter's  'what happened next'  stories from the 1st Harry Potter and The Philosopher Stone till Harry Potter and The Deathly Hallow..but since the very first movie of Harry Potter came out in the cinemas in the year of 2001, i have been trying out to see the movie in big screen..but i failed coz' my place where i lived dont have the nearest cinema..till i go for my further studies and now..today the 29th Nov of 2010, i watched the final Harry Potter and The Deathly Hallow part 1 in a big screen with a great sound effect...at last my 9 years dream come true..i feel so happy...when im watching the movie..i can still feel the excitement when i read the 1st book of Harry Potter..and straight away read the second book which i borrowed from my teacher in my high school..im so excited to know what happened next..its really different kind of feeling when your childhood dream come true and it feels like im back to the past where i started to dream of it..hmmm look childish..but thats the truth..thanks to JK Rowling for her stories..her stories have become a part of my life and the memories of it follow my journey..

My BoYs ArE bAcK.....

SeMeStEr BrEaK ~ PaInTiNg HoUsE :)

       The past few weeks was really interesting for me..starting with my raya and semester holiday..im back to taiping after almost 2 months..i desperately missing my family..and when i get back home..i change the whole house..cn u imagine almost 5 years my house never  paint..we try to do something to make our house look new but there always something hapen and our plan will laid in rest..but this time..i really made up my mind to paint my house..i bring my dad to the paint shop and choose some colours..and now my house looks like a new house..im sure my house really happy when she changed her colour from pale white to colour paint..painting the house really tiring but im so happy coz my house looks new..

~I kNeW i LoVe YoU bEfOrE i MeT yOu MiChAeL~

~.........YoUr LeGaCy WiLl LiVeS oN.........~

YOU GIVE US THE BEAT,RHYTHM AND SOUL

YOU MAKE THE WORLD DANCE

YOU ARE CHOSEN FROM THE STAR

 To the king..you make the world dance, you make the music comes alive...ur dedication to your music, to your fans and to the world...you gave us the beat, you gave us the rhythm, you gave the soul..and ur love for the world..trying to heal the world, no matter what people talk bout you..you stay strong..you are chosen from the star..you will stay shining..ur legacy will lives on..happy 52th birthday...you know how much i miss you and love you..wish you are still alive.. what else can i say...words seems to be stuck and tears is only answer..LYM Michael...

Happy 52th birthday Michael

OnE LeSs LoNeLy gIrL

LOVE THIS SONG..CUTE VIDEO...WITH CUTE JB..^_^

LeAvInG

I lAy My LoVe On YoU....

I LOVE THIS ROAD VERSION OF THIS SONG..LOVE THE SIMPLE DANCE..THIS SONG WILL ALWAYS BE ON OF MY FAV...

hOw tO BrEaK a hEaRt

SiLeNtS Is tHe aNsWEr

silents is the answer....

What have i done to other people..why people keep hurting me..those who hurt me dont realise how much it makes my heart ache..im not the one who love to shout or become TENSION PARTY..as u love to say....hmm how easy your mouth talk..after you hurt me..i just couldnt tell anyone..one thing i can do is let my tears roll...what else i can do..can i go and shout at the person who hurt me..there is no use..coz they are so happy when they saw me hurt..i didnt start the fight..you are the one who start it..coz u misunderstood with me..is that my fault..coz you are stupid..dont even know simple things...is that my fault..why u need to insult me..and atlast u said im wrong..hmm thats so easy for you..why should i still talk to you..im a tension party..im a selfish person..so why should i keep talking to someone so perfect like you...silents is the answer...i know im the one who stupid to accept a friend like you...i regret...if i never found you..i wont hurt badly....i was hurt by you..which i still couldnt forget those words..and u still doing it and  hurting me...and u will always hurt me..

MuCh bEtTeR DaY....

Today was a good experience for me and my classmates..we had so much fun at a factory in batu arang where all the bullets and simple weapon made...since we are defence university students..all of us were given the permission to go and see ourself how the bullets and all the plastic covers were made..can all of you touch the real bullet..not all..but we did it..the going to be officer of coz they will touch it more often then the reserve cadets..today me and laila ina  bet each other..to snap pic with one of my fren..and i did it..woooww..hahaha..atlast i can eat free..hehe..but rounding the whole factory was quite tiring..but still we enjoy it..and today my day was a perfect one..^_^

the entrance of the bullet factory

my visitor pass

my classmates gathering at bestari building's foyer before we get into our transport     

WhO SaId DrEaMs cAnNoT cOme TrUe....

My ClAsS 3zP45

BaD HaIr dAy

everything is not going well today..
well hate this day..
hope everything is fine after i wake up tommorow morning...:(

ItS aLl FoR L.O.V.E

JuStIn BeIbEr BeFoRe hE WaS FaMoUs JuSt 12 yEaRS oLd

yEsTeRdAY, tOdAy AnD fOrEvEr

     11 years back                                                 

now

JuStIn BeIbEr

FaVoUrItE BoY

ShAnE FiLaN ~BeAuTiFuL iN wHiTe

Shane:
Not sure if you know this,
But when we first met,
I got so nervous i couldn't speak,
In that very moment,
i found the one and,
My life had found its missing piece,

Chorus:
So as long as i live i love you Will have and hold you,
You look so beautiful in white,
And from now to my very last breath,
This day !'ll cherish,
You look so beautiful in white,
Tonight,

Shane:
What we have is timeless,
My love is endless,
And with this scream i,
Say to the world,
You're my every reason you're all that i believing,
With all my heart i mean every world,

Chorus:

oooohh
You look so beautiful in white

Na na na na

So beautiful in white
Tonight

And if our daughter's what our future holds
I hope she has your eyes
Finds love like you and I did
Yeah, I wish she falls in love and I will let her go
I'll walk her down the aisle
She looks so beautiful in white

You look so beautiful in white

Chorus: 

HaPpY........yIpPy..........

Ellow...it has been a while and my blog is still pending with my last post..well i was so happy today coz my cousin sister is now pregnant 3 months..since last week i was missing my niece and nephew so much..thank god i got the chance to go and see them last week..and feel so happy to be with them..now i will have a new comer..hmm still have 7 months to go..have to wait till next year march..wonder whether gurl or boy..i love baby gurl but its okey any babies, as long as healthy baby...hmm i thanked god for my life is now stable and happy..surrounded with friends and family..im enjoying my life to the max..this month is fasting month for the muslims and me too taking fast but sometimes half day..hehe..hope  i cn lost my weight...lol ^_^

NeVeR sAy NeVeR..............

See I never thought that I could walk through fire.
I never thought that I could take the burn.
I never had the strength to take it higher,
Until I reached the point of no return.

And there's just no turning back,
When your hearts under attack,
Gonna give everything I have,
It's my destiny.

I will never say never! (I will fight)
I will fight till forever! (make it right)
Whenever you knock me down,
I will not stay on the ground.
Pick it up,
Pick it up,
Pick it up,
Pick it up up up,
And never say never.

I never thought I could feel this power.
I never thought that I could feel this free.
I'm strong enough to climb the highest tower.
And I'm fast enough to run across the sea.

And there's just no turning back,
When your hearts under attack,
Gonna give everything I have,
Cause this is my destiny.

I will never say never! (I will fight)
I will fight till forever! (make it right)
Whenever you knock me down,
I will not stay on the ground.
Pick it up,
Pick it up,
Pick it up,
Pick it up, up, up,
And never say never.

Here we go!
Guess who?
JSmith and Jb!
I gotcha lil bro.
I can handle him.
Hold up, aight?
I can handle him.

Now he's bigger than me,
Taller than me.
And he's older than me,
And stronger than me.
And his arms a little bit longer than me.
But he ain't on a JB song with me!

I be trying a chill
They be trying to side with the thrill.
No pun intended, was raised by the power of Will.

Like Luke with the force, when push comes to shove.
Like Cobe with the 4th, ice water with blood.

I gotta be the best, and yes
We're the flyest.
Like David and Goliath,
I conquered the giant.
So now I got the world in my hand,
I was born from two stars
So the moon's where I land.

I will never say never! (I will fight)
I will fight till forever! (make it right)
Whenever you knock me down,
I will not stay on the ground.
Pick it up,
Pick it up,
Pick it up,
Pick it up, up, up,
And never say never.

I will never say never! (I will fight)
I will fight till forever! (make it right)
Whenever you knock me down,
I will not stay on the ground.
Pick it up,
Pick it up,
Pick it up,
Pick it up, up, up,
And never say never.

My FaV PhRaSe

 if you hope, get ready for disappointment too..
when our heart stops hoping, our mind stops believing

TrUsT oR nOt To TrUsT...ItS iN mY HaNd !!!!!!

ellow..its been 1 week i didnt open my blog..well basically i hate blogs ..but sometimes i can be a good blogger too..so just feeling like writing sometimes..pity  to my blog still pending from last week....todays story is about friendship..im still wondering should i trust my friends or still have half trust only..u must be thinking something happened..thats why im asking this but it happen always in everyones life..it is just that do we change our self or do they change their selves? In my life, i only trust 30% of my friends...the other 70 %..i dont trust coz usually people loves to take advantage on me..coz when people good to me..i will be more good to them..but i never think ..are they acting..do they need something from me..what i know is trust people, then we can go through our life easily....we cannot just live without trusting anyone in this world..but lately i started to realize people sometimes show of their real face when they feel im not so important...and what do i do? haaa..simple bro..in my own way....(lu mau buat muka sama gua..gua x layan sudeh...lu ingat gua mau merayu ckp sama gua..lu make dono..gua make double dono.....piigi daa...gua jalan straight je beb..x de toleh2 belakang..lu cari sama gua..kasi lu merayu sama gua..pown gua x caya sama lu lagi....sapa suruh lu tipu sama gua in prenship...padan muka sama lu...wahahaha(: )
well in simple English...i dont bother if u started to show ur real face..if u wanna fight or just wanna joke with me in a serious way...dont expect me to come and talk to you..or laugh with you...if you ignore me..coz you still have ur other best friends...i will act as if i never meet you before...u think i'll come and ask you why u ignoring me? it wont happen dude..i go on my way..without turning back..even if u trying to get closer to me..i already have a full stop...i DONT TRUST u anymore.....why u lied in our friendship..its ur fault..if u have another face of you..i do have another face of me..i do good to people who do good to me..but to whom do the bads to me..in return..i wont do bad...but i will IGNORE you..you are out of my life..............GOT IT!!!!!!
well to those who read this..dont get shocked okey..its just a notice..( looks like a warning hahaha)..i just want people to know me..atleast before they play with me they know about this..thats all..so guys..enjoyyyyyyyyyyyy..... ^_^

WhY fLu..... WhY cOuGh.......I hAtE iT..... :(

After for so long my body immune is down..im having cough n flu and it is getting worse day by day....i guess i was infected  from my class since half of my classmates suffering from cough n flu....i lost my attention in class, dont have mood to study..and i decided to take a rest in my room..i went for a report sick and the doctor who treated me..was so gentle i like her a lot..she gave me idea..try to find pure honey..it will less my cough..but its hard to find here..so she just advice me to buy strepsil with honey flavor....oww....so sweet of her just like honey..hehe...my mom said...i didnt get flu and cough for nearly 1 year so...now i get it all together....owww....i hate it..i feel uncomfortable with my nose blocked..itchy throat..my voice changed..feel cold sometimes..n feel hot sometimes...arghhh....when its going to end...i want to be healthy back....because of this i have to absent to my class for 2 days....today n tomorrow....i have to break my Principe..this semester i have vowed not to absent any class..but  for my goodness sake i  have to absent for 2 days...i would like to advice everyone..dont take things  for granted in your health matter..it will ruin your life...sometimes the things we take for granted can bring us to the most difficult situation...there is no use to regret after that..so be aware...health is one important matter in our life..dont take granted of it..take care your health..dont ruin your life and other people life too.....

TrAiNiNg...TrAiNiNg...

It has been 2 years my university didn't have training for the reserve army cadets..and we dont get our elauns since then ( not included me)..why no training? well mainly  because this defense university (UPNM)  dont have trainer or reserve army officer yet..the 1st intake and 2nd intake is just an experiment to make UPNM as a university..i know all of u might confuse what the hell im talking..let me explain..before UPNM become defense university it was an academy called ATMA..means Malaysian defense academy..so to upgrade this academy to a university, they must have civilian students.... so to make the university not to look like other public university (means with full of discipline and well organized) the admin bring out the rule that all civilian students must go through for reserve army officer training to graduate from UPNM...they only brought up the rules but there is no organization for the reserve cadets and the admins main priority is the regular army cadets because  everything is the same like ATMA, it just that  they changed the name to university..sometimes we felt like foreigners in our own university, only 68 reserve cadet has gone through their training in another university, im 1 of them..i felt lucky  because now 3rd year in my university im among the seniors..but my other friends in my class or in my batch still the juniors because they never had training before...so after struggle for 2 years now we back in action..we have our own trainer, our own officers and we can get elauns too..yesterday was my 1st training and i was having flu and cough together..it really embarased me..i felt so like chicken...i wanted to do all my physical training, running but yesterday i couldnt run since my nose was blocked by the flu..the only wrong step i took is i didnt tell my trainer that i cnt run, so while running i stopped half way and tell my trainer i couldnt run..he shouted at me..."you so weak cadet..cant even run for 1 round of the field and you are a senior".i felt so shame..but i dont care its a part of the training.. being scold and embarrassed by our officers..that evening we have marching class... my friend and i taught the juniors the basic of marchings..the gals are so soft..in marchings u must be like a proud officers with your body straight, hands swing properly and walk according to the command given...but these gals have no spirits..i know most of the people dont like marching...but i love marching..i enjoyed my training yesterday but that night my flu and  cough got worst..today morning i couldnt wake up..my nose is blocked and im shivering..i wanna go for training but i think its useless if i go there and just watching other people doing training..but i felt bad too because today we will have map reading class..i still not good at map reading..so i decided not to go and have good rest in my room..i just woke up and need to take medicine, before that...need to eat something..so i ordered fried rice and while waiting for my food i write this...now my rice is ready..after that i want to drink caugh medicine and take flu tablet..im going to sleep till night..hope i will get well before tomorow..im not going to skip my class just like i did today...so have a nice day..god bless you..

OnCe UpOn A TiMe iN uPmN...HAHAHA....

This year 2010 is my 3rd year in my degree program...wow how fast time moves...I still can feel how when i put on my 1st steps on this land called Sg Besi and Universiti Pertahanan Nasional Malaysia(UPNM)..My dad was the most happiest and proudest person..Why? Coz he thought i can become an army officer...so let see what i will become later..hehe suspence rite? I passed my interview eventhough i know i never answer the questions because i dont want to be in UPNM..u wanna know why? Wait n see..So when i enter Sg Besi camp it was a very well organized with military police at the main entarance checking and answering civilians question...then second enterance was the UPNM and the RP welcomed us..Feel happy when thinking of me going to study in a well organized and famous in high discipline university..Wow can u imagine..talking about defense ..ARMY, NAVY AND AIR FORCE what is your 1st impression..if me..i have high respect on them.Feel proud to be in defense...Well im going to be 1 of them..We have physical test n interviews..can u imagine I stop running since form 4 and suddenly run 2.4 km with already given the time limit..and I over the limit...and some excersice i cnt do according to the instruction..hahaha damn weak..but nw i think back, sure i cn do if i wanted to do..bt u know ..that time was like so blur..hehe..and interviews..before they ask questions they told us that we are not going to be regular officers but only reserve officers..oh my god i was just reserve? not going to be capten..only second lieutenant..i lost my interest to become 1 of the person in UPNM because i know i cant be regular officer anymore..my heart was broken into pieces...i never answer properly in the interviews so that they can fail me and i can study business in UMS.. so now u know why i failed my interview myself..im not going to be regular officer..when i waited and pray 1st before checked in the net for which university i got.. I prayed no UPNM....It was another shock..i was almost crying...i got UPNM as civilian student a.k.a reserve cadet...my dad feel this one is much better then i go to UMS coz UMS is very far from peninsular Malaysia and  needs money for flight and can only come back few days in a year....so what else i except it..maybe i got this because im the only Indian gal in my batch..so as to fill the quota they passed me...i take it as my faith.UPNM is my destiny..so i take it with my open heart..feel happy at least i got chance to go university..lots of my friends didnt get any university..so 2 cars followed me..hehe...im a family gal..i love if my family do everything for me..so we started at 7am from my hometown but before i reached to the place...my family n I were lost...we couldnt find where is the Sg Besi camp almost few hours..and i was among the few last person who arrived in UPNM..my heart beat so fast and feel like dont want to study and stay with my family..hehe..i dont want to separate from my family..but on the other side after i feel so excited to be in UPNM..i was in a new life, new environment and new friends.Being the only indian in my batch is a weird thing...Im not new to this environment because i have been in TLDM school where there are majority malays,  cn say most of them were malay. Indians can be counted just 3 or 4 people..My friends are all malays but what is the difference being with malays in UPNM and  in TLDM..Convent school no need to explain..Convent means UNITY...well i think there is a lots of differeneces between TLDM n UPNM..for example in TLDM we are studying in klass since standard 3 till form 3 and we know each other more, we become like sisters n brothers.They never bias to me...even my friends came to my house to eat tossai during their fasting and open up their fast at my home..that is how close my malay friends are..but in UPNM the malays are from many states and most of them never had indian friends before and some have very bad thoughts on indian maybe because of some indian thats show of their bad attitude make the malays have bad thoughts on Indians.It takes almost 1 year and half to get along with them..and in 1st year i was not staying with all in 1 dorm coz no place so i was given the other place with me alone in 1 room. I suffered a lot coz its hard to do assignments and atlast get used to lonely. Maybe if i stay in dorm with all..we can get used to each other. My result was not good in 1st semester and it effect my other semester result..But i never give up ...my 2nd semester till now, my results not bad, it's increasing little by little. I thanked my god coz never let me down..the most unforgettable moment of my life (bad memories) was when all the civilians transfered to stay outside and all of us has been given rooms and i have 6 house mates(1st list)..and 2 of my house mates try to push me out of the house by asking me to go to the other house(2nd list) as if my name was in other house..and the other house didnt agree and said my house belong to the 1st list.They even auctioned my name to the other dorms to take me as their housemates..i was auctioned?...its still hurt...Why do the 1st list house mates did that to me..just because im an Indian..what kind of human being they are..i dont feel anything when all my house mates are malay..but y they acting like that to me who are the only indian..only god know the situation im had gone through..being pushed by fuckers to here n there...but i couldn't say anything but only crying..at the same time i lost my beg where i kept my rm150 given by my family members to me..one of those malay gals wrongly took it but they are so rude..asking me to come n take myself and never say sorry..why the malays are so fucking bullshit..then i realize who r they to talk to me..i am who i am..no one can make me look coward..im not coward..i started to think of myself..to those who did that to me..i'll make sure u gals find for me..i am very sure those who did this will never forget and will always feel sorry..i can forgive u..coz im just a human being..but u must take ur punishment from ur god..that was my miserable university life few years ago..now i feel happy with malay friends...some of them are so good..my malay best friends from TLDM i will never hate them..coz half of my life gone with them..i love them so much..now my new friends ,my life is going with them..we are in a same boat to row..love u gals..i have seen lots of people..y there are difference between them, its because their lifestyle and own thinking..some are open minded some are the kuno's hehe..next year we all are going to graduate, so i just wish all my friends will pass their degree and go out of UPNM with flying colours......until then we will still row the boat together............

LiFe Is A tEaChEr

Ellow..how are you peeps..im just fine..just feeling like writing bout life..dont you think life is a teacher for us..it teaches us lots of things..sometimes we tend to be weak but it will get more matured when we face lots of things in our life..no matter good or bad..for example, yesterday was a really sad day for my friend fina.her dad passed away suddenly..even i cant take it, how would my friend take it? i even got shocked till i cry to my mom cos i feel afraid when people died suddenly..my mom scold me why am i so coward.we must face the life and shocks.we cant be so weak.We must have strong heart. hmm is this what we called life? Why we must have people who we love? why god must take away them from us? to make us suffer or to make us realise how precious that person is to us. what i understand or i know is its our faith.god has given us such a big chance to appreciate everything that happen in our life.love everyone, live life the fullest, make people feel happy because we wont know when we will end our life, maybe in 5 sec more or tonight or tomorrow so enjoy our life, love our friends, our parents, teacher, everyone so that one day we wont regret why we didn't appreciate everything why we never say thanks to god.sometimes i just wish to turn back the time to correct all the wrongs i have done.im a little stubborn u know,i wont realise something that my parents said no until i go through it. but now im a good gal because i feel my parents is the best motivator and advisor.i should listen to them more. since i cannot turn back my time, so i let the past to guide me to the future.i realise that i must get ready to hear more bad news than good news.since im getting older year by year..hmm i always say to myself whatever happen we just let the time decide but before that get ready mentally to face the consequences.

My OwN wOrLd

hmmm..this is my first time writing a blog..basically im not good at writting and im very lazy to write something..but not everytime coz sometimes i do feel like writing..so i started to have my own blog just to write something..my opinion..or just let go my temper..hehe..or for a time past..hmm so lets started it..welcome for myself to the bloggers world..kikiki..